So, tonight as I tucked Miss 5 into bed, she throws her arms around me, real tight - as she does every night - and says "Mama you are the best!" And tonight, as happens every night, my heart is pricked with sadness - because today I failed her again.
I have pretty high expectations on myself as a mama. I want to be fun loving, wise, with grace flowing from my tongue, a calm spirit, peacemaking, gentle (ok and I want to be the kind of mama who always has cookies and milk ready at any moment.... - sad I know) - the list goes on. Sometimes I am some of those things. Sometimes I am not very many of those things. Sometimes I wonder if I can ever be any of those things. Motherhood is a battlefield. My task oriented pride is at risk. Every conversation, every dealing, every glance is a potential fatal wound to my 'portrait of me as perfect mother'.
What I mean is that when I want to speak kindly with wisdom to settle a dispute or issue of disobedience, sometimes a poisonous rebuke comes out. The kind that shrivels little hearts. And sometimes an impatient sigh. I know about the sigh because I heard my 1 year old copy me yesterday.... (another fatal wound to my pride of self imposed perfect motherhood!)
But... this is not a confession of self pity! No, certainly not! This is just some thoughts out loud which is me, making some moves in the direction of loving my children as the Lord loves me. Because actually that's what I need to be doing. Paul (as in the Apostle Paul) writes in his letter to the Corinthians about love. True Biblical love. Ironically I am in the midst of writing a children's book about how to love like this. So, maybe you want to join my on this journey. Go ahead, look up 1 Corinthians 13 - and join me on the journey.... and as for the book.... well.... watch this space! :)
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Labour Day Monday looked like this.....
We came here for our picnic lunch....
It was a beautiful day but the air was still a little cool at times
Then we tried (again!) to get a photo of The Three....
(without much success again!)
Then to dear friends for coffee and playtime.....
(this couple have got more than their fair share of talent
- who thinks to build a plane in a tree?!)
And a highlight of coffee time for a certain someone
was the four legged furry friend ...
who was much in demand....
It was a lovely day!
Hope yours was too..... x
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I got this idea from here and thought I would have a go.
It's turned out better than I thought.
The wood was the end of the piece we cut off when we made our
I am not sure where to put it yet.... it's pretty big.... maybe by the gate.
What do you think?
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
A place to sit outside on those balmy summer evenings?
A 'thing' for in the guest room?
Somewhere for visitors to sit and take off their shoes?
Or is it something to put on trademe to make room for the next project?
What do you think? What would you do with it?
It wasn't so ugly after all was it!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Take one nasty 50c plastic and chipboard tray from the op-shop
(wish I had taken a before photo - it was nasty!)
Clean it, paint the plastic white
Paint the tray with chalk board paint.
Write on it and display it.
Say no to all children who ask to draw all over it....
(just kidding - well.... not really!!)
Sunday, October 3, 2010
I still do not have a good photo of these three. Try as I might, there are always dramas.
This morning they were all dressed and ready for church looking so sweet together -
"Oh", thinks me - "this is the perfect photo opportunity."
Oh boy was I wrong.
Can you tell Jack was yelling (yes yelling!) "cocolate" - yes I had resorted to holding chocolate above my head in order to get smiles......
Now he is trying to get off the seat to get the chocolate... while Lucy has the sun in her eyes and Georgia is trying to hold Jack still......
Somehow, when THIS little guy is out of the picture.....
...things go swimmingly.
That's all for now folks!